Weigh In

Errrr…..

162.7.

Really??! I was under my calorie goal yesterday!

I’m so frustrated. Last year I lost 2 pounds almost every week. I was even just walking, not even running. And now I’m struggling with the same 5 stinking pounds for the last 6 months. It is very defeating, very aggravating. I feel like I’m never going to lose this weight anymore. I’m still 30-35 pounds from being within my “healthy” weight of 125 pounds. At 160 this body is limited on what it can do. And I still feel so big it’s hard to look at myself in the mirror some days. Why can’t I exercise more self-discipline? Why can’t I get control and do everything right???

My roommate thinks she needs to lose 10 pounds. This girl is really fit and very skinny. When she said that I just shook my head. “You look amazing, there’s no need to lose any weight.” I told her in my head. I think that this was kind of a wakeup call to me. Even “skinny” people can be conscientious about their weight. Maybe she isn’t one of those skinny people that can eat and eat and eat and not gain a pound. Maybe she works hard to keep herself looking good. I definitely need to do that. It just feels like there’s no support system in place for me. I feel awkward bringing up anything about weight and weight-loss with the roomie because I feel so big compared to her. It’s kinda awkward to go out with her because I definitely feel like the ugly fat chick next to her.

If there’s anyone out there that’s reading this, what do you do when you feel this way? Where do you go for help?